Well… My little Islamic Feminist movement got off to a slow start. I feel like saying, “Rome wasn’t built in a day”, but praising polytheists feels wrong.
Earlier in the day…
Anon: “I’m thirsty but I can’t go in the kitchen.”
Me: “Why not?”
Anon: “Because the brothers are chatting in there.”
Me: “So what?”
Anon: “There have been some complaints… That’s their problem… It’s too much hassle.”
Me: “But you’re dressed modestly and stuff. I don’t see what their problem is.”
Also, I had seen a post on Facebook during the afternoon regarding Sunnis denouncing Shias, a different issue but the author was one of few the sisters I know locally who isn’t afraid to make some noise when they see Muslims abusing other Muslims by restricting their freedom. They’ve written about Muslim women’s issues also in the past. Much respect.
Later in day…
There was lots of shuffling around, sisters trying to squeeze into the back rows of the lecture theatre, brothers filling from the middle backwards, leaving the front half empty.
Me (perhaps subconsciously frustrated from earlier): “Why don’t we sit at the front for a change?”
Anon 1: “Yeah, okay then.”
Anon 2: “You’re brave.”
Me: “Why’s it brave?”
Unfortunately, after a few minutes Anon 1 then deserted me to go off and tend to an official duty she was tasked with. But never mind, the movement isn’t dead yet. Perhaps Anon 2 will join me next time. Come on sisters, if you want to do something that you think is right then just do it! If anyone says anything then you can always blame on me. Say that were confused and blinded by my white liberal western decadence that distracted you from the “true” path of Islam. Sometimes people will tend to assume that I know nothing, which is useful because as a recent convert often I do know nothing and their advice is helpful. However, I also try my best to fact check everything (well, nearly everything) that people tell me, especially things that appear to go against one’s sense of natural justice. There are usually so many interesting and related things to know a about a subject that just one hadith or ayat (verse) is rarely enough, but it can often be inspiration for a learning journey.
Anyway, I talked to two men about their adventures travelling. Would you believe it, I, me, saw an actual man with an actual face with my own eyes. More than just a mysterious voice from behind a curtain à la Wizard of Ozy style. And the amazing thing was that I wasn’t at all tempted to ask either of them to get into bed with me and nor did they put such a proposal to me. It is possible to have a chat with a man and it not be a step towards sex or involve any flirting or anything untoward. Amazing! Who would have thought it!
And, it being a lecture and all, I didn’t have to do any ruku, yoga or athletics or any such similar things where a woman might feel that she prefers to be at the back or in her own women’s only space for sake of her own privacy, the sorts of things where a man might snatch a glimpse of an ankle or buttock or some other body part and risk himself having a hard-on and all sorts. Nor was I raped or molested during the lecture. Alhamdulillah (Praise The Lord)! Men can control their sexual urges when they want to, and they don’t require women to babysit by doing it for them.
I hope to speak to more men in the future. I don’t know much about their strange species because I only just met one for the first time today. But I’ve heard that they make up 50% of intelligent life on earth and have taken up more than 50% of the influence and power for themselves.
In case you can’t tell by now, flippancy is one of my biggest sins / stress relievers / cherished forms of humour / way of raising concerns in an environment where people are encouraged not to discuss things openly.
Also, being at the front, I got a prime view of the lecture and could hear everything the Mufti said very clearly. I’m not even going to mention the other thing, a little “tiff”, which I also saw clearly, but let us just say that I wasn’t the only woman to feel slightly frustrated. Nor did I broach the saying, “It’s 2016, the sisters are doing it for themselves”, but power to the sister who did. I promise we’ll make it a group chant next time, inshallah. :)
Here are some of the highlights from the lecture that I marked with an asterisk in my notes:
- “How can I use my action (e.g. gaining a degree) to benefit others”. Reward is gained for doing the degree even though it is for oneself, but because one is using the skills to help others then they are rewarded for the original effort of getting the degree too. Barakah — when Allah is part of your intention. It’s a way of life.
- There is a difference between knowing something and it becoming part of your being and practice.
- Time management: We should strive to account for every moment of our time so that use it usefully.
- Offering of 6 step advice plan for our university community. Here’s some of them:
- Read a bit of Qur’an every day.
- 5–10 minutes meditation every day, imagining your heart filled with Allah while reciting his name.
- Attend one gathering (either face-to-face or online) for at least 30 minutes per week.
- Have a long-term goal and a role model.
- To memorize the Qur’an, it helps to work on several bits simultaneously. For example, take one part (e.g. a page) that you’ve been working on for a while, and another you just started yesterday. Your memory of the first part while become good with some days practise but you memory of the second part will hopeless at first but will improve, and you can introduce a third part.
- Apparently the Mufti has tracked how many people lead a religious and wholesome good life in Egypt over the decades by observing how many women wear hijab. Because a woman could be be the most kind, caring, generous, hard-working person but if she doesn’t wear hijab then she’s not a proper believing Muslim but a kafir — apparently. I insert the Mufti’s proof by method of waving of hands. I’m sure it will make complete sense to all of the sisters.
- Apparently genderfluid people are the latest threat to the believers from the destructive “atheist liberal society that doesn’t value anything”. What qualifies the Mufti to know about transgender people is unclear. It also remains a mystery as to why genderfluid people would necessarily not be believing monotheists but logically must belong to the tribe of atheists. I also have no idea whether the Mufti always intended to mention this in his talk or if he thought he would throw it in because he saw me attending, but I will give him the benefit of the doubt and assume that it was not a direct attack aimed at me. By the way, the mukhannathun in the prophet’s time (pbuh) were genderfluid people and the society had few problems because of it.
…and lots of other interesting stuff too. I guess I could write up all of my notes, but basically you get the idea that on the whole it wasn’t a bad lecture.
There were only a couple of low-lights. I prefer it when there are none, though in this particular case neither irked me too much because I was in a good mood and my self-esteem is holding up. I know that it’s rare for a woman to be permitted to not hate herself in our patriarchal society, but I’m doing okay today after a poor day on Thursday.
Final score: Haram police 2, Me still standing 1, Overall lecture 9/10.
I had an interesting personal experience the other week. At a conference I attended a Malaysian woman introduced me to her husband. Unfortunately, as he went to shake my hand I simultaneously went to bow. I’m not saying that I know for sure that women shaking hands with men is okay Islamically because I am confused about it, but if the customs in British communities are more fundamentalist than the customs in some Muslim majority countries then that is food for thought.
I’m actually not trying to tear down the castle. I’ve had casual sexual encounters in the past, before I converted. Some of them pleasant, at least until the inevitable break-ups came, though also many sexual relationships that were abusive, some of them consensual and some not. When women are treated as disposable sex objects who men take for sexual gratification without wanting to know the person they’re f**king then it is a problem, the depersonification and the lack of commitment is painful more than any man can know. The experience can be a hellish place. People will know things if they have reason to know them. Brothers laugh whenever a Mufti or a Shaykh mentions pornography, but I bet there are some who sometimes take a peak. The brutal treatment of people in the sex industry, sometimes made to perform with strangers over and over until their genitals are torn and bleeding. I’ve only read about such things but I can imagine the hell. Is that categorically the same as a simple polite handshake or having a conversation about an innocent subject? Or do the two groups of things belong to different categories? Does one really lead to the other? Or can we just be sensible about it? Perhaps we can use our combined brain power to come up with some good ideas that better humankind.
In the Q&A session someone asked what could be done to make sure that gender segregation is “correctly” maintained for British Muslims. This idea that women have to be separated from men at all times because the men will be “distracted” and tempted towards the sin of fornication, this is a kind of rape culture I think. And this is why I became very angry, and triggered.
The Mufti explained the difference between arranged marriage and forced marriage (a distinction that I quite agree with). When he introduced the topic many brothers laughed. Even the Mufti objected to this reaction. I don’t see what is funny about taking a girl out of school before she has completed her studies and forcing her to live in a another country away from her closest family and where she has spent most of her life, to serve a man sexually and domestically who has no respect for her because he’s only ever known her as his pretty cousin who lives in England who’s going to be prize possession to f**k one day. It is a serious problem that does take place in some families. On the other hand, parents and friends who know two people well and introduce them to one another with the hope that they will get along well and make the decision for themselves to marry, I think that is a kind, most blessed idea. Who knows us best and the qualities of our characters and whether we would be a good lifetime match than our closest friends or family (apart from Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala)? Certainly I trust them more than primitive sexual instinct. I wish that I had a close friend who knew me well enough and was kind enough to act as such a matchmaker. But forced marriage, it is an abomination and a human rights crisis! Perhaps the fact that this is the cause of such jovial laughter and amusement is demonstration of a huge divide between male and female Muslims and the entitlement and control over the women that the men have been raised with. Or perhaps, with the exception of a few outsiders to the culture like myself, everyone simply has experiences of an aunty who’s a bit of an eccentric passionista when it comes to arranging marriages but she’d never do any harm. I actually don’t know. But I am worried. If young unmarried men really are so unfamiliar with the feelings and emotional needs of women then we have a big problem.
Where does all of this leave me now? I notice that sister Anon 2 didn’t say to me that it was haram, incorrect or inappropriate for me to sit at the front of the lecture, just “Brave”. Only those aligned with the cause of the good are brave, those in pursuit of harm are simply insolent or evil. You know what sister, what I suggest we both do? Firstly, let’s educate ourselves. Let’s start that halaqah (sisters’ study circle). Every time a man says that something has to be done a certain way that you find doubtful then take that as energy to go and research the topic and find out what the scholars said and what the other scholars who disagreed with those scholars said. Just refuse to take no as answer because it’s nearly always more nuanced than that. Publish articles about your research findings as best as you can, we are after all university students who have some experience of writing essays. The ultra-conservative Wahhabis, Deobandis or whatever they want to call themselves aren’t the only sources of Islam. I wasn’t entirely un-serious when I broached the possibility of setting up a whirling dervish group. It’s an example of the diversity of Muslim practices that the hard line shariah police who seem to dominate everything these days would rather eradicate from Islam, just as they would prefer that the women were confined to their homes. Not modern western decadence but 10th Century CE eastern Islamic decadence! Let’s take some courses. Let’s become recognized as real bona fide women Islamic scholars, heck there does seem to be a significant shortage of them. As the Mufti said, if your learning is in the cause of righteousness then Allah will reward you twice, one minor reward for seeking knowledge and a much bigger reward for benefiting others with that knowledge. Secondly, keep up the resistance, a little nudge here or there but be persistent. It’s 2016 and the sisters are doing it their way. Thirdly, as a long-term goal, let’s create space for it. Set up that progressive scholarly web site that’s written in a style that’s accessible to the common Muslim. Maybe we can even open a small mosque in a spare bedroom or something that focuses specifically on inclusivity and open mindedness. It’s been done in other places such as London (Inclusive Mosque Initiative), Amsterdam and Canada. Create those spaces where mothers can pray without getting a message coming over the tannoy from the brothers that parents need to control their children more. Kids will be kids and run around a bit so let’s not deny them their childhood and recognize that it doesn’t invalidate the prayer if a small person without the mature mental faculties runs across in front. Create places where non-binary gendered people feel comfortable praying. Create spaces where women can see and know who their Imam is as a person rather than as a figurehead hidden behind a curtain who you have to make a special appointment with to see (though granted a curtain is sometimes useful for privacy such as to allow taking niqab off while eating). Nominate your most knowledgeable sisters to become Imams. It’s rare but not unheard of.
A sister showed me an app that a brother sent her a link to. Thanks to him she can now see maps of all of his running activities. I’m not sure what the purpose is really. Perhaps the brother has good intentions and is concerned about protecting sister’s health and getting her into the good habit of doing exercise. A most noble cause, as Allah requires us to do our best to stay strong. If we become weak then we will not be able to attend to our duties properly and we will become too weak and sickly to fast, to concentrate on our work, and even suffer with bad joints and things and be unable to offer prayer in the full complete way later in life. But twenty odd maps with exact details, distances and times, is this amount of detail not perhaps a little excessive? And why did brother not choose to share this information with me also? Surely all of the sisters could benefit from his wise knowledge in getting people self-motivated with their exercise programmes? I’m sure I would be impressed if I studied his running maps (or maybe not, as I suck at running, though I do enjoy long walks). Could it perhaps even be regarded as prideful or flirting to share such personal information? Considering we are told that men are to be sectioned off in another space away from our view for our own protection from the fact that, “All men only want one thing, in general” (says the Mufti), then why are the same group of men who subscribe to this idea (though not necessarily the same person, I actually have no idea) sharing so much conversation electronically? Is it not a bit hypocritical to do one thing in front of the Mufti by asking, “What can we do to make sure that gender segregation is correctly maintained?” while doing exact opposite thing electronically? A case of keeping up appearances perhaps? Or perhaps some brothers agree with me, that complete and total gender segregation is unnecessary and men can successfully contribute to women’s conversations without secretly hoping for sex?
Oh, and I will be tracking my whirling on the running app. It’s going to be the best running map ever, hundreds of metres of movement focused around a circle 2ft wide.